cierra las ventanas, viene la tormenta

i am trying to look forward to the fall
i made myself a small list in a document, saved and ready for updating on my blackberry;
a list of things i can look forward to doing, or having.. it goes like this:

i can bake all day if i want to.
also, if im going to be a baker, i wanna get bakin' (not bacon).
i can clean my closet and switch my yellow thin sheets to my yellow thick sheets
and empty it of clothes that aren't me anymore.
i can wear my thermals, i have a favorite orange one.
This also presents many opportunites for layering, and opprtunites to wear more than one shirt at once, giving me more of a chance to actually wear all the clothes i own (and insist on keeping in my drawer).
i have started several paintings, and cast them aside to start new ones. maybe the fall will provide a new perspective, to end things, hopefully my paintings. Fall is, after all, a beautiful death of beautiful things.
I have so much plaid to wear. I somehow picture fall, or myself in the fall, wearing plaid. And i have a strong memory of being 3, going to a pumpkin patch on my birthday, wearing a pink and black buffalo check jacket, and my brothers wearing red and black and blue and black buffalo check jackets. i had a cold nose then, too.
pumpkin coffee at dunkin donuts. score.
i can have soup for breakfast lunch and dinner. soup is the best thing in the world, really. there is something about making soup, putting everything you love into it, and having a warm bowl of
everything you love to eat. if i made soup 3 times a day, i'd never want to skip another meal.
As things draw nearer, like moving, and puerto rico, and senior year..
im a little scared,
but a little excited,
and a little proud,
to be starting my independent life.
with you.
i just thought of having a small apartment
where i can cook for us
and we can share a small space,
and if its warm,
then we can walk around at night
after work.
and if you take me somewhere cold,
you can keep me warm,
and we'll keep each other
happy.
won't we?